Retractions, Second Guessing and Right Decisions...

There are announcements and then there are ANNOUNCEMENTS. This will be an ANNOUNCEMENT.

Last week was registration time for Tai for school. I arrived and grabbed his folder which also had Liv's name on it, as she was all set to attend this school before the summer began. I filled out all of the necessary paper work and spoke with the principal about Liv not attending the school. This is where things get tricky. He was upset, not angry, but genuinely upset and told me he knows it was ultimately my choice, not his. He told me that whatever accommodations were needed, surely they could meet them. I explained I that my ex-husband and myself had made our decision. He accepted this and looked completely defeated. Good. Except somewhere within, my heart was a bit saddened by this. It may have been just a mixture of being around all the kids excited for school starting, all the staff talking to me and asking about the kids...I'm not sure exactly what IT was, but I started second guessing decisions made. Decisions I was previously content with. At any rate, I continued to just register Tai. I stopped at the nurses desk to give her Tai's emergency card. She is also a friend as her son is in scouts with my son. The nurse asked about Liv and when I told her our decision, she too looked defeated. I could see on the faces of the entire staff that they had big plans for Liv, plans that had apparently changed since I last spoke to any of them.

Finally, as I was leaving, I turned right back around and asked about half-day classes. The admission secretary told me that mornings were full and if enrolled, Liv would have to attend PM classes. Well, that was going to be it for me at that point. Liv would be in more danger going to a PM class than being at the school for the entire day. This is because there is no knowledge of what kids ate before coming to school, one touch from a child with mayo, egg or peanut butter and Liv could be on her way to the ER. The good thing about the AM class is breakfast. I don't know about you, but I don't know many kids that eat eggs for breakfast before school. It can happen, but it's less likely than a PB&J, or food containing mayo. So, in my head, I figured the second guessing was all for not.

All of this was not settling with me just yet. I poked my head into the Principal's office and inquired about the accommodations they could make. He told me whatever was needed, they would do. I told him that I may consider half-day class. This is where a turn of events came...a big turn. He then asked if I would be interested in am or pm class. I explained the am class being full and that I was only exploring the option as I was not sure of the pm class. He verified that this was our "home" school and explained that if I wanted her in the am class, she would be in the am class, period. What?! Was I imagining this all, or was he completely ready to do whatever necessary to have my child attend this school?! Still not too sure on my feet about any of this (WHAT am I doing?! We just got this all figured out!!), I set up the 504 meeting with him for last Friday.

I discussed this with some friends and we are all in agreement that something came down the line. Don't forget that I had been in contact with the office of Civil Rights. They had everything on record and a complaint ready to file. I definitely believe this changed the course of things for us. Liv's father and I discussed this at length the next day and came to the conclusion that while our daughter is "different", she deserves the chance at some normalcy. As long as the 504 meeting went smoothly and every accommodation I felt necessary was put into it, Liv was going to go to SCHOOL!

504 MEETING:

Wow, never underestimate the people who will be working, hands-on with your child. I first attended a meeting in the morning with the district nurse, she was unable to make the actual 504 meeting. She was simply wonderful and knew a lot about food allergies and Anaphylaxis, bonus! It was a lengthy meeting and I feel, a successful meeting.

ACTUAL 504 Meeting:

I walked into a conference room, and at first felt completely overwhelmed and intimidated. There sat SEVEN pairs of eyes staring at me. The meeting consisted of the principal, assistant principal, Liv's teacher and her assistant, the school nurse, psychologist and the PERA. Mr. Principal (we'll just call him that) opened the meeting by handing out the drafted 504. As we began talking, six of those pairs of eyes scoured the drafted 504 and proceeded to TEAR. IT. APART. You could see immediately how disappointed THEY were with it and brought up each and every one of my own concerns, without me ever having to say them myself. Seriously? Did this just happen?! These women (six of them were women) were on Liv's side, they truly were. They played devil's advocate in every scenario they could think of, and they thought of a lot! By the end of the meeting, Mr. Principal was stunned. He had no idea that I was in fact, not crazy and made no effort to hide that fact. I'm perfectly okay with that. I know my daughter has a team at school that is there for her, thinking of her and worried for her. I know my daughter is in as safe hands as I can possibly put her in, other than my own.

Sometimes (Read: a LOT of times) we as parent second guess ourselves. I'm okay with this because I think it means we are examining all options and only doing our best to give our children the best we can. With THAT, I have to retract my previous announcement of homeschooling and I'm excited to say that Liv's father and myself have decided after a successful 504 meeting that our little girl will be starting school next week.

**Homeschooling** is still an option for us, if at any point in time we become uncomfortable with Liv going to school.

We Have to Know When Enough Isn't Enough....

Alrighty, returning to this blogs true form of past and present postings, here is a present post.

So, over this summer, I've debated back and forth SO many times on what I was going to do about Liv's educational needs this coming fall. I thought of holding off and putting her in school next year, rather than this year since her birthday is only 3 days before the cutoff date. I've thought maybe "No-Name" (read: the BIGGEST school district in the state) school district would get their act together and the 504 would work itself out, it has not. They've sent me a draft of what they'd LIKE to put in place as Liv's 504 and honestly, I'm not even sure WHY they bothered. They kept it as brief and with as little detail as they could legally get away with. I mean one example of it's negligence is the wording for her egg allergy. To quote the "drafted 504" she is allergic to "raw eggs (freshly baked goods)." This presents a big problem for us, Liv is more than just allergic to "raw egg and egg in freshly baked products", my girl can't even come in contact with TRACE AMOUNTS of egg/Albumin/Globulin/Meringue (well, you get the idea...there are a TON of names for Egg listed in foods). None of these names were mentioned in the slightest on the 504. You can see a better list of names for eggs HERE. This 504 also states that her exposure to allergens needs to be limited during times of eating and snacks. Um...again, a NO GO here. "LIMIT"??? Uh, how about no room for error? My last point that I will harp on with the 504 (there are many issues...but I'll keep it brief for you :) ) is its complete lack of mentioning her Epi-Pen. You see, the principal and I have been at complete odds about her Epi-Pen and where it is to be kept. He wants it in the office....in the OFFICE locked up! I told him that I don't care about policy, she NEEDS it with her at all times...ALL times. For goodness sakes, she carries her Epi Pen "on her person" 24/7 as it is right now, she has done so for years already. The point is, when something goes wrong **KNOCK on WOOD/God forbid**, she needs that Epi-Pen within SECONDS in order to save her life. Oh, I'm getting carried away, sorry. Anyway, it seems that it went from us going back and forth over the Epi Pen issue to them just forgetting about it entirely, most likely hoping I'd overlook this issue. Yeah, RIGHT. So....that's that on the topic of the "proposed 504 draft."

On to some more issues at hand with the school district/principal at "no name" elementary. The principal finally contacts me last week requesting to meet with me on 08/13/2010. Seems like this is okay and reasonable, right? Wrong. School registration is on 08/04/2010 and the first day of school is 08/23/2010. This gives me ten CALENDAR days from the meeting til the first day of school. Now, had the principal NOT dropped the ball last SCHOOL year when I went in to start this process...we would have this done ALREADY. I'm a little more than frustrated, in case you couldn't tell.

Now, I don't know a single person that would trust this school with their FA child and Liv's father and I are not about to test their efforts either. What's the decision we've come to?? Home school. Well, sort of. There is a public school that is tuition free and online. Sounds kinda extreme and maybe even a but weird, right? I know, I thought that also, until I checked out the website and spoke with several staff members. Here in CO, it's called COVA (Colorado Virtual Academy). If you would like to read more on this you can check out k12 here. It is fully guided and graded by an actual teacher, I would just be a "guide". Only about 15% of Liv's curriculum will be online. How in the world am I going to do this?? Well, just like everything else I do, with 110% effort. I work part-time in order to balance my work schedule with Liv's schedule (Dr appts with regular Dr's, specialists, emergency situations...just all around gives me more flexibility) and Kindergarten is only part-time. Somewhere in here, we will fit her required hours of school in and be a fully functional family...maybe not sane, but definitely functional. The other perk to this is I can delay her immunizations a bit longer. I know I could sign the waiver for regular public school, but why chance it with so many kids around? This way, it's just us and we can do the immunizations a bit more staggered.

What am I doing about the school?? I'm fighting like hell for the rights of future FA students there is what I'm doing. I'm just fighting them without my child attending there. With all the legislation being passed this summer in Colorado, the school doesn't really have a leg to stand on and I will be the voice our community needs. I can't see backing out now and letting another poor unsuspecting family deal with this nonsense. It doesn't hurt that I'm already an active member of the school's accountability committee which is a group of parents that serves as liaison between the parents of students and the district, bonus for me.

SO, at this point, I am publicly announcing that I've chosen to put Liv into Kindergarten this year, just not at our local public elementary school. As for next year, Liv will attend a charter school in Littleton. The principal of this school is a friend of mine AND has a child with food allergies just like Liv. She is wonderful and she totally understands the needs Liv has. It's just unfortunate that her Kindergarten is already full with a HUGE wait list, or Liv would be going there this year.

Sometimes We Fight More Than Just Food...Part Two

Let's just go ahead and pick this up in June of 2010.

I've tried with VERY little success to get a hold of the principal at "no-name Elementary". I've called the school's general number and left voice-mails as well as I've e-mailed him. No response. I've decided to take matters into my own hands and above/beyond the principal's control. I decided to call not only the school district's main office, but also our local office of Civil Rights. After getting an immediate response from The Office of Civil Rights, I suddenly also heard back from the district. Small miracle, but I even received an e-mail from the principal. I'm amazed at how suddenly getting back to me has become a priority.

There is a long list of what went wrong and where, but if you're ever in need of advice, I can definitely let you know what to watch for and how. I was caught completely off guard with just HOW bad our situation has been handled.

The district 504 coordinator has been in touch with me personally and taken over the whole process vs the principal taking any responsibility here. I will be sure to file a complaint with the district as well as a grievance against the school. I'm deeply saddened by this entire situation. I'm more than disappointed with the choice of FREE PUBLIC school we have available to us in our neighborhood.

I don't know where we're going from here at this point when it comes to schooling, but right now, nothing has me feeling okay with Liv going to "No-Name Elementary". That's sad.

Sometimes We Fight More Than Just Food....

Present day posting**

Alright, so some of you may already know this story, but I definitely think this bears repeating.

Let's go back to approximately the middle of April 2010.

This would be around the time I approached our local elementary school with regards to a 504 for Liv. If you don't know what a 504 is you can check it out here. This initial meeting went much better than I had anticipated. The school's assistant principal was right on board with all the specifications needed to keep Liv safe. Wow, this is going to be a great experience is what I thought. Well, I've mentioned before, it's not often things go exactly as planned for me. This situation would prove to be no different.

Let's move forward to 04/28/2010. I go to this elementary school for a casual parent meeting. You see Tai, my son, already attends this school and I volunteer there. Back to my point, we were having a meeting with the principal over some parent concerns regarding the cafeteria and lack of recess time for our kids. This doesn't seem to have anything to do with Liv, does it? I wouldn't think so either, except this is where the principal of the school brought it upon himself to bring Liv and her 504 up. Yes, in this very public setting in front of other parents! I tried to let it slide and side-step him at every bait. He proved my side-stepping skills to be well, less than what I was hoping for. There was a point in this meeting that he mentioned another family that WAS going to do a 504 for their child (who has a peanut allergy), but chose not to because their child would be so segregated. He also took it upon himself to give this family my information to contact me and be a "support" to me. This went back and forth for some time, even going as far as making other parents uncomfortable. In the end, he was totally frustrated with me and told me that I was looking at this 504 situation with negativity. I offered him the same bit of advice right back and made my exit. I. Was. Not. Happy. In fact, I was the furthest from happy I'd been in a LONG time. There are many things wrong with how the principal presented himself in this situation. First off, you never without the permission of parent/guardian, bring up a private medical matter publicly. Secondly, he assumed I didn't already have a support system in place and freely gave our info to another family. Now, I might sound snobby, but I have a wonderful support system in place as I strive to be as active in the "food allergy" community as possible and quite honestly, to compare one child's allergic life to another in such an uneducated manner is just absurd. Third thing he did wrong here, a public school is required by law to follow the guidelines in place for implementing a 504. After all, this is a section of the Rehabilitation Act of 1973 we're talking here.

I leave this meeting feeling somewhat defeated and quite frankly, ANGRY. Angry that I let myself get trapped into this good for nothing argument and then let the principal get the best of me. I would be back, and I would be back with support, education on this issue and so much more.

Later in the week I spoke with the assistant principal, she was still more than on board with everything and started putting things in place. She had me sign a release for the district's area nurse. The area nurse was to call Olivia's allergist and confirm the severity of her allergies. Well, this call took place...sort of. The nurse called and spoke with Liv's allergist's nurse, only to confirm there was in fact such thing as a "contact" allergy. She then argued with the allergist's nurse about this being true. UGH, here we go again with this negativity.

I'm beyond frustrated now and schedule a meeting with the principal. I have many issues that need to be addressed, in person. Initially, I was prepared to go into this meeting angry and letting him know I was angry. Good thing I was talked out of this course of action. I went into the meeting with a three ring binder that holds about half of Liv's emergency room records and my notes from her Dr visits. I had all her meds and I even took Liv with me. I quietly sat down and laid everything out on his table. I got a bit of the reaction I was going for...he looked perplexed, but also a bit shocked by all of this.



This shock was short lived, it didn't take him long to find his stride again. I did point out that he violated my daughter's civil rights by speaking publicly about her 504 and diagnosis. He apologized and we're making progress! Nope, that was where it all ended and he again, went on to tell me that I was asking too much and he didn't see how it could work. He pointed out that there is always human error, and went on to push the epi pen issue. What is his stance on the Epi Pen? Lock it in the office, at all times. Um, I will NOT agree to this. Liv's Epi Pen WILL in fact be wherever she is at any and all times. I promised him that this would be put into the 504 and enforced. I wish I could say this meeting ended on a good note, but it ended right there. He was over it and so was I.


**In an effort to keep this from dragging, I will continue this in a separate posting**